Monday, June 20, 2011
Part of my life.Have you ever feeling worthless as a member in ur family?
no matter how much u try to do, they just can't see it..or mayb they just think that
u're supposed to do those while the others are not suppose to.
It sucks u know!!!
everyone can sense that "bias" is happening on me and certainly i know it's since i was like 10?
I can totally feel how she feel about me and how she treating me...
but i don't know why until all these years, she is still the same..
i seem to be da most worthless among all even though i try to do my studies and everything best..
well..i can say i'm the only one that doesn't need them to have the extra burden on worrying...
I just know how to plan for myself and try to experience life..but in this circle..i'm more like a
cinderella...no one is sharing my feeling in this circle...all i do is just nothing and i memang have the obligation to do it while the others can just sweet talks out of it...
It just making me to hate myself for being such a person, a person that i can't have it all...
im thankful that my life is still good and im happy both of my parents are with me and staying
under the same roof.
All these will never be complete if you rarely feel love from the one u really care about and really love...
instead of love, I feel the sense of picking on..and unfairness more!
why is it happening to me?
Is it I having problem? or whatever I do they dont like?
i just cant help but to think if myself having problems with them..
it's just so sucky...feeling bias everywhr..everyday everytime...
Especially after this stupid internship started..
i tot i've finally worked like really working they will just give me more space and be understanding...
hell..the thing i get is getting nag the moment i back from work till i go out @ night..or till i facing my comp with my ear phone!
It's not fun and i just can't stand it...has been years im facing these stupid issues!!
I duan to be a bitch to complain and being " take things for graanted" but im feeeling myself
being so worthless..she just make me feel bad bout myself...
Ahh....i just wanna screeaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!